Merlin's been healing me for months now, but he's not strong enough. Dr. Watson has done scans... he's seen the scarring being lessened. I've only had the one seizure since I've been here.
I think... I think it's going to be okay. I just - I don't want to tell Isaac, Scott, or Derek. They lurked over Merlin and I don't want them to lurk over a God. Not if she's going to help. I want... [She exhales and looks to him.] I wanted to know if you'd go with me.
[She gives him a look.] Allison and I have never even spoken to each other... I don't really think that's... [She shakes her head.] No.
And Sam would worry and I don't... I mean, he says that the werewolf thing is cool, but I didn't tell him about the waking up covered in blood thing -- or that Isaac died. I don't think he's used to this sort of thing. I think this has been too much for him. His friend Blaine just came back and I don't want to go, 'By the way, the sleepwalking was also my roommate and his band of corrupted friends using that to frame me for the murders...'.
[SHRUG.] I trust you to make sure that if something is gonna go wrong, you'll tell me. [She knows he's very detail orientated guy.]
[She laughs and picks up the rabbit, putting him in her lap as she shifts her seated position.]
I know, but -- it's mostly for moral support. Despite all the times you entirely frustrate me, there are a lot more times where you're honest with me and I need that.
Do you know how frustrating it is to try to tell a group of people to just listen for a minute when they're all busy doing?
[The cafeteria when Peter was stalking them all around school sort of came to mind. Or basically any time when he was trying to talk and people were too busy doing anything but listening.]
I sort of spent most of the time trying to not have people notice me. I don't think they do it on purpose, but I'm sure that eventually it'll even out. They'll come to you for the idea or something.
They wouldn't come to me if I had a giant sign that said 'Ideas' that glowed and spewed off fireworks while they were in the dark and completely out of ideas.
[He'd consigned himself to that sad, sad fact. But that last bit had him giving her a sideways smile.]
I could go alone. [She wouldn't want to, but if he said no she wasn't going to ask anyone else.]
That's... it's not saying that you're my only choice in the bad way. It's not like I'm stuck with this. I'm choosing you because that's what my choice is.
You've talked to me about things. Things from home, even the ones that other people probably wouldn't.
[Derek just shuts her out. He tells her how it is going to be and that's that. She's not allowed to ask questions because all he does is frown at her, cross his arms and not talk to her. Isaac -- she's pretty sure Isaac is done talking about it and that's fine, but she knows that he has too much on his mind right now and she's not going to explain how she's deciding to heal herself in a risky magical move that puts her brain in the hands of a God.]
[He would have asked if it was about all the completely illegal things he'd done since this whole werewolf debacle had started, but she was less aware of those things than anyone and he was pretty sure those weren't deciding factors.]
I can go, but I'm probably going to be nosy and ask questions. God or not, I'd like to know that they know what they're doing, or at least have a vague idea.
I think maybe the creative might be your downfall. You could just be direct and if you had an extra two-fifty on you... that would be really unhealthy.
Not an extra two-fifty. God. I'd be a mountain. But maybe bigger than Derek-hulk size to back up a threat. The worst I can do now is elbow someone in a sensitive spot.
In four days. I just, I want to make sure that I have time to ... to back out, I guess. I don't want it to be this rush, just because of everything that happened.
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Merlin's been healing me for months now, but he's not strong enough. Dr. Watson has done scans... he's seen the scarring being lessened. I've only had the one seizure since I've been here.
I think... I think it's going to be okay. I just - I don't want to tell Isaac, Scott, or Derek. They lurked over Merlin and I don't want them to lurk over a God. Not if she's going to help. I want... [She exhales and looks to him.] I wanted to know if you'd go with me.
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[That surprised him and it was clearly visible that it had done so.]
You want me to go with you? What about Allison? Or Sam?
[Or anyone that wasn't him?]
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And Sam would worry and I don't... I mean, he says that the werewolf thing is cool, but I didn't tell him about the waking up covered in blood thing -- or that Isaac died. I don't think he's used to this sort of thing. I think this has been too much for him. His friend Blaine just came back and I don't want to go, 'By the way, the sleepwalking was also my roommate and his band of corrupted friends using that to frame me for the murders...'.
[SHRUG.] I trust you to make sure that if something is gonna go wrong, you'll tell me. [She knows he's very detail orientated guy.]
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You do realize I know jack squat about magic, right? I sure as hell don't know enough to know if a god is doing something that might screw you up.
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I know, but -- it's mostly for moral support. Despite all the times you entirely frustrate me, there are a lot more times where you're honest with me and I need that.
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[The cafeteria when Peter was stalking them all around school sort of came to mind. Or basically any time when he was trying to talk and people were too busy doing anything but listening.]
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I sort of spent most of the time trying to not have people notice me. I don't think they do it on purpose, but I'm sure that eventually it'll even out. They'll come to you for the idea or something.
[She smiles at him.] I'm coming to you for this.
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[He'd consigned himself to that sad, sad fact. But that last bit had him giving her a sideways smile.]
Yeah, but how many options do you have?
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That's... it's not saying that you're my only choice in the bad way. It's not like I'm stuck with this. I'm choosing you because that's what my choice is.
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[He stretched out his legs, leaning back and bracing himself up with his hands as he gave an awkward shrug.]
Surprised that you're asking, that's all.
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[Derek just shuts her out. He tells her how it is going to be and that's that. She's not allowed to ask questions because all he does is frown at her, cross his arms and not talk to her. Isaac -- she's pretty sure Isaac is done talking about it and that's fine, but she knows that he has too much on his mind right now and she's not going to explain how she's deciding to heal herself in a risky magical move that puts her brain in the hands of a God.]
You seemed the right person to ask.
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I can go, but I'm probably going to be nosy and ask questions. God or not, I'd like to know that they know what they're doing, or at least have a vague idea.
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Merlin had Derek, Scott, and Isaac looming over him and threatening him. Questions will be an upgrade to threats.
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Yeah, I can't picture your threats actually being threatening. It might be your word choices.
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I think it's the lack of two hundred and fifty pounds behind them that makes them seem less plausible.
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The whole package.
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[There's a small depreciating smile as he looks down at his feet.]
So, when do you want to do this probably really irresponsibly dangerous thing?
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In the morning though.
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