[ she likes his laugh, especially right now ( but she likes everything right now, everything ), as it makes her chest feel warm and her smile grow a little more. she just relaxes against him for a moment, her heart finally calming down and everything sort of just... feels right. there's no worry or fear about her oath, about timing or how they went about things. it actually feels pretty perfect. ]
-- We're not virgins anymore.
[ like she's sharing some kind of secret, though she sounds just as ??? as she does !!! virginity is a weird thing, and for most people, maybe it's not a big deal. but for a girl with an oath and a boy that had to deal with virgin sacrifices, back in their real worlds, it kind of was. more weight to it, more meaning, maybe. which just makes her love this exact moment even more. ]
[He almost sounds surprised about it, like hey, he'd actually lost his virginity. But he just kissed the side of her head before he pushed up a little, reaching down for the blankets so he could pull them up and over them. He wasn't sure if he could go to sleep just yet (probably soon, though), but he wanted to be sure they were as comfy as they could get without having to freeze parts off once the high wore off.]
You don't regret it or anything, do you?
[Niggling, worrying fear and doubt that she'd finally clue in that she was stuck with the geekiest of the geeks and start looking for an upgrade.]
[ there's some part of her that was worried too, sure, but she knows it's ridiculous, she doesn't have to ask. but then Stiles does and for a second it makes her worry for an entirely different reason, one mainly revolving around trust. so she sits up a bit under the covers, her chin resting on his chest, and that doesn't make it any easier for them to actually look at each other, but at least she's looking at him now instead of being curled up against his chest ]
I'm not going to answer that because you know the answer. There's no way you didn't- get that. [ feel it, might have been a better word, because she meant that feeling of this is right and this is so much fun and this is perfect all rolled up into one big Feeling during all of this ]
[She moves and he can sort of see the curve of her cheek and her nose, and he's smoothing down her hair, feeling that little bit of worry start to melt away.]
I got it. Trust me, I got it, I just... I don't know. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. It's like this is too good and I'm not supposed to have that.
[His biggest fear at the moment? That she'd leave. That she'd leave and come back and it wouldn't be the same her, and he'd have to see her and not be able to touch her or hold her or...
It had him trying to pull her up, moving down a little to steal another kiss.]
[ the tone of why would you say the thing is gone and replaced with something sweeter, genuine and pleased, in a way, because she doesn't mind reassuring him in this, not really. the idea of doubting her makes her feel itchy, but his self-doubt, as rare as it is to come about like this, that she can try to smooth over. she wants to. so she shifts up where he guides her, lips light against his, fingers brushing back along his neck. she's all affection and warmth now, somehow even moreso than before ]
There is no shoe, there's no- I mean, I've got both feet firmly planted on the floor here. I'm in love with everything about what we have, and that wouldn't be possible if you weren't exactly who you are. And how you are, and why you are. You deserve good, Stiles, even more good than I can give you. All the good. Everything good. [ she's smiling, giving him another quick kiss ] There is a lot of crazy stuff to worry about in this city, but I'm not one of them. Me and you, this is so permanent. As long as we're both here, I'm not letting anything change that. I swear it, on the River Styx.
[ which probably doesn't.. mean anything to him, but it's pretty much the end all be all of the Greek world, and something she never really says because of said end all be all-ness of it, so. ]
But what if you go? What if you go and I can't find you?
[He sounded genuinely worried about this, because no, he didn't want to lose another person he cared about. He couldn't go through that and he'd fallen hard for Rachel. Having her taken away from him now would just kill him. He'd be useless and he knew it. But he didn't want to seem like he was this codependent jerk -- even though he might be a bit where she was concerned.]
I just don't want to lose you, Rach. Not here. Not home. I... I know we don't really have a say in it, but I want to. I don't want to have to go home without you.
[ her forehead rests against his as she shuts her eyes, and now she's back to not knowing what to say, how to make it right. she shakes her head a tiny bit ]
We can't think about that. I mean, there's no way of knowing. [ how things will turn out, when it'll happen. ]
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-- We're not virgins anymore.
[ like she's sharing some kind of secret, though she sounds just as ??? as she does !!! virginity is a weird thing, and for most people, maybe it's not a big deal. but for a girl with an oath and a boy that had to deal with virgin sacrifices, back in their real worlds, it kind of was. more weight to it, more meaning, maybe. which just makes her love this exact moment even more. ]
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[He almost sounds surprised about it, like hey, he'd actually lost his virginity. But he just kissed the side of her head before he pushed up a little, reaching down for the blankets so he could pull them up and over them. He wasn't sure if he could go to sleep just yet (probably soon, though), but he wanted to be sure they were as comfy as they could get without having to freeze parts off once the high wore off.]
You don't regret it or anything, do you?
[Niggling, worrying fear and doubt that she'd finally clue in that she was stuck with the geekiest of the geeks and start looking for an upgrade.]
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[ there's some part of her that was worried too, sure, but she knows it's ridiculous, she doesn't have to ask. but then Stiles does and for a second it makes her worry for an entirely different reason, one mainly revolving around trust. so she sits up a bit under the covers, her chin resting on his chest, and that doesn't make it any easier for them to actually look at each other, but at least she's looking at him now instead of being curled up against his chest ]
I'm not going to answer that because you know the answer. There's no way you didn't- get that. [ feel it, might have been a better word, because she meant that feeling of this is right and this is so much fun and this is perfect all rolled up into one big Feeling during all of this ]
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I got it. Trust me, I got it, I just... I don't know. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. It's like this is too good and I'm not supposed to have that.
[His biggest fear at the moment? That she'd leave. That she'd leave and come back and it wouldn't be the same her, and he'd have to see her and not be able to touch her or hold her or...
It had him trying to pull her up, moving down a little to steal another kiss.]
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[ the tone of why would you say the thing is gone and replaced with something sweeter, genuine and pleased, in a way, because she doesn't mind reassuring him in this, not really. the idea of doubting her makes her feel itchy, but his self-doubt, as rare as it is to come about like this, that she can try to smooth over. she wants to. so she shifts up where he guides her, lips light against his, fingers brushing back along his neck. she's all affection and warmth now, somehow even moreso than before ]
There is no shoe, there's no- I mean, I've got both feet firmly planted on the floor here. I'm in love with everything about what we have, and that wouldn't be possible if you weren't exactly who you are. And how you are, and why you are. You deserve good, Stiles, even more good than I can give you. All the good. Everything good. [ she's smiling, giving him another quick kiss ] There is a lot of crazy stuff to worry about in this city, but I'm not one of them. Me and you, this is so permanent. As long as we're both here, I'm not letting anything change that. I swear it, on the River Styx.
[ which probably doesn't.. mean anything to him, but it's pretty much the end all be all of the Greek world, and something she never really says because of said end all be all-ness of it, so. ]
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[He sounded genuinely worried about this, because no, he didn't want to lose another person he cared about. He couldn't go through that and he'd fallen hard for Rachel. Having her taken away from him now would just kill him. He'd be useless and he knew it. But he didn't want to seem like he was this codependent jerk -- even though he might be a bit where she was concerned.]
I just don't want to lose you, Rach. Not here. Not home. I... I know we don't really have a say in it, but I want to. I don't want to have to go home without you.
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We can't think about that. I mean, there's no way of knowing. [ how things will turn out, when it'll happen. ]